It's okay to love but please, NOT too much. Trust me, it will hurt you to the point that you just wanna end your life. I almost did it, dude. Sounds corny, unbelievable and STUPID but yes, it crossed my mind for so many times.
It's been 3 months and 12 days (lol, yes I'm still counting days) but I still remember everything. I still hear him say those words, words that broke my heart into pieces. Everyday, those memories it's haunting me and it's hard, can't think of something that will divert my attention. I can still remember everything about it, I can still remember how I became alone, careless, frustrated, mad and unhappy.
Everyday is a challenge. You have to pretend you're good even if it kills you every night. You have to be happy so it won't affect the people who sorrounds you. You have to be very busy even if your mind, hands, body are tired. You need to be a pretender, an artist.
While I'm still in the process and still healing, I can say I learned something.
1. Never love too much.
2. Never put a temporary guy on your priority list.
3. Never get too attached.
4. Just go with the flow. Best relationships are unexpected, not planned. It's too early to plan for your future.
5. Communication, Honesty, loyalty is a MUST.
So I guess, that's it for tonight.
Good night world. ★☆★
